No, not me. I'll get that out of the way right now

I guess i've been sitting on this for months, and I was hoping it'd just all go away. I wish it did... But, I guess maybe actually getting all my anger, frustration, and w/e on paper(or text) would be better. Maybe.

So, I was dating this amazing guy(Jay), and we hit a rough patch. Well, we stopped talking as much, but were still doing good-ish with that. He let me know his friends girlfriend(Megan) was coming out, so he was just letting me know things would be hectic while he was making her welcome with his friend(Travis). Anyways, he said she was coming out the 19... she came out the 16th. Which I found out from someone other then him. So I was lost, confuised... Wondering why he was never answering his phone, never talking to me.. always saying 'my phone is dead' anytime there was a long break in talking, then ten minutes later it was dead again(seriously, if your phones having that bad of an issue, get a fucking new one.) Well... a few days later he texted me to wake me up for school; a text about how I was making him unhappy, and that he thought we should 'take a break' and he 'needed space'. Every woman knows what that means...

Well, that was a few months ago.. i'd be lying if I said I didn't love him, or that I don't miss him on occasion... but he's an asshole, and frankly I hope.... well. I'll be nice.

Anyways, this morning, after me and the girl had spoken for awhile and I found out her and Travis broke up, and she wasn't just coming out there for a visit, and that Albert had ASKED her to live with him(all stuff he lied about to me)... well, I guess a month and a half ago, she got pregnant.

Another bright, heartwarming wakeup call that slapped me onto my ass and made me feel worse about the whole thing...

I don't even know what the point of all this is, but.. damn am I fucking furious. Not... I dont even know why. I just am. AJfdshgs. I hate men -.-